Disclaimer: Prior PR sample; Jamberry consultant. See bottom for full disclosure.
October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month, and Sunday is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. This time of year, I think a lot more about the people I know who have lost an early or mid-term pregnancy, or have experienced still birth. None of these end results are what you expect when you’re expecting, and they are all devastating.
For me, I’d just seen the heartbeat of my tiny, developing baby flickering on the ultrasound screen a week and a half or so before I found out that heartbeat didn’t flicker anymore. I was 36 at the time, a newlywed, and I took the loss extremely hard. I didn’t discuss it openly at the time, but I had a cervical issue and had undergone a procedure in the earlier 2000s and was advised at that time I might have trouble having/carrying children one day. I thought this miscarriage meant that I might never be a mom. Over the course of six months, I was depressed, and I gained a lot of weight that I had worked so hard to lose the year and a half prior.
Without the baby girl I lost (they did tests on the baby after removing her through D&E in order to understand what went wrong; there was no explanation), I wouldn’t have my 2-year-old daughter, my rainbow. So I am grateful for the blessing I have. My daughter is amazing!
This particular post is difficult for me this year, because I am currently one day shy of 19 weeks pregnant with another daughter, conceived this time – at age 40 – with the help of a fertility specialist. I’ve had a normal pregnancy, and I’m not considered high risk, even with my advanced age. I was considered high-risk with my last pregnancy, because of the miscarriage. I think it’s natural to worry about the health and wellness of your baby when you can’t see or feel anything. I am at a point where I can feel the baby on occasion.
Why do I share such a personal story? Because that’s what awareness is.
It’s an attempt to shatter a taboo.
It’s breaking down the barriers.
It’s killing the silence so that women don’t have to struggle alone and feel ashamed that they have experienced something that “you’re not supposed to talk about.”
My heart breaks for all of you who may have gone through a loss. And I wanted to share a mani and do my part to raise awareness to what might be considered an uncomfortable reality.
Side note, apologies that on the close-up, my cuticles are rough. I had a bad reaction to wearing gel polish about three or so weeks ago, and as part of my healing, the skin around them peeled away from my nails. It was like sunburn peel, except thicker layers of skin. After this started happening (think from under the nail away across the pad of the finger), my cuticles started to peel as well. I’m on the better side of things now, thankfully, but they do look a little rough!
- Jamberry Nail Wraps created by someone in the brand’s Nail Art Studio.
- Zoya Esty on my middle finger.
- Sinful Colors Kissful Thinking added on top of Esty. (the two larger glitters are supposed to be lips!)
There’s room for us to raise awareness for everything this month. Thanks for letting me use nail polish, nail wraps and my experience to help with Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness.
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