February was a tough month. I was not focused on this project at all!
In fact, I lost a little steam on it. February was a bit of a whirlwind, and for about half of it, I didn’t have time to accomplish day to day things – like eat lunch. So when it comes to my list – things like baking a sour cream apple pie, or taking my daughter to the aquarium – they didn’t happen. I’m hoping March will be a better month for some of this stuff.
But I did accomplish a couple things. Check them out!
Stop saving samples for travel and special occasions
In my empties post Monday, I included a section on all the samples I tried. I decided that one of my 40 before 40 items would be to try more of the samples that I have, to live a little! I don’t have to hold onto these samples in the event I travel. I haven’t even been traveling that much in the last couple years, and I’d rather experiment with new product than let it go to waste because I am holding onto it!
Plus, it eliminates some of the clutter in parts of my beauty storage. I’m having fun working through these tiny foil packages and mini perfume bottles.
Not the most exciting bucket list item, but certainly one that encourages me to live a little more in the moment than to put things aside for a practical time.
A personal one
I have to confess. One of the items on my 40 before 40 list is something I can’t really control. And I don’t know why I put it down on paper. Or why I haven’t taken it off, for that matter.
I would like to be pregnant with my second child before I’m 40.
I’ve always been pretty transparent on BeautyJudy about struggles in life, including my first pregnancy, which ended in miscarriage.
Well, after six months/seven cycles, we have been unsuccessful so far in getting pregnant.
Doesn’t sound long, right?
Well, because I’m almost 40 (and this is true for women if you’re over 35 according to my doctor), my OBGYN recommended I see a fertility specialist. Last month, I made that appointment for March. By the time I see the specialist we will have tried for seven months. It feels a little surreal to do this, since in reality, I got pregnant very quickly the first time, and then six months after my miscarriage I got pregnant with my daughter.
It may very well may be true, what encouraging friends and family have to say – “Stop trying/stop thinking about it/destress, it’ll happen!” But we owe it to ourselves to follow our doctor’s orders and rule out anything like secondary infertility.
So I will remove this item from my list, because I DO know better – it isn’t something you can “check off” a list, it’s something a lot less predictable.
As I wrote this post, I was struck by something.
Each item has a lesson that I wasn’t even shooting for.
Like above, my list item about samples and using them – that one turns out to be a lesson in living in the moment and not saving anything for something else that doesn’t have an arrival date!!
Last month, my lesson was about taking in the joy and happiness I feel when I watch my daughter having a good time, learning and playing. Taking a moment to write about my experiences is causing me to reflect and value what I’m doing.
This is exactly why I wanted to do a project like this. Not because I’m dreading 40 – I’m not. But because I want to grow and never NOT be self-aware, before and after I’m 40.
See you next month…