I’ve written about my life with rosacea in the past (photos are missing, fyi). I’ve reviewed redness relief and calming skincare and makeup in the past, too.
But my skin has really hit a rough patch lately, literally and figuratively, and I thought I’d share with you what’s going on and how I’m handling it. Because as a beauty blogger, I’m constantly taking photos of my face, and I’ve tried not to let this interfere with my self confidence but at its worst, I felt very, very self conscious about it.
Wedding and honeymoon!
So this was me, on my wedding day, before I put on my makeup, at the salon having just had my hair done!
My face is a bit red, right?! Cheeks are flushed. I’ve been having consistent issues with red bumps on my nose that I have trouble covering with foundation. I’d also been having on-and-off issues with some rough, dry, flaky patches that were popping up all over my face randomly, some getting big, some resolving. My family doctor said I had psoriasis and prescribed a cream that I used when I needed to get rid of the spots.
I felt happy with the wedding makeup I did for myself, though! Here;s one of our professional pics!
Reminds me…I should probably post about my wedding nails…and post about my wedding in general!!
Anyway. Then I went on my honeymoon. Admittedly, I ate a very different diet than I normally do. I ate foods rich in fat and sugars – eating more breads and grains than normal – and I drank more alcohol than usual. By the middle of the honeymoon, this is what my face looked like…please excuse the lighting, I took them in the resort bathroom:
I was crushed. I wanted to wear no makeup that day, to give my face some air and healing time, but I also felt so ugly – and it HURT – that I put a minimal face on, some foundation and powder, a little blush and a lippie, and tried to forget about it so I could enjoy our day in Disney World. Here’s what I looked like after:
I still felt like everywhere I went, people were staring at the marks on my face, because while makeup covered the red, it didn’t cover the scaliness of the patches, and I was constantly itching them, and wearing off the makeup by late morning.
When we returned from our honeymoon, I slowly returned to eating per Medifast, trying to shake off the few pounds I gained over wedding and honeymoon, but my face didn’t get any better. I made an appointment with the dermatologist.
He said it’d be hard to pinpoint what the trigger of this is, but it’s not psoriasis, it’s eczema, which can often go hand-in-hand with rosacea. He said it could be wheat. It could be me walking into a room where someone has a certain perfume on – my skin is super sensitive.
He prescribed me a 30-day course of antibiotics to calm the inflammation of my skin, and a cream to help reduce the eczema call Elidel.
He also removed the largest spot from my cheek, which he said was precancerous. He froze it off. It hurt, but it was a weird sensation and not as bad, to me, as getting a needle!
I took this photo a few days later:
You can see I’m healing and getting better. Sometimes, the patches still itch. And right now the eczema is worst on my upper lip. I hide it SO well with lipstick!!! I have still been doing lip of the day photos on Instagram, I can’t believe I’m able to. Sometimes, my upper lip just vibrates with pain. I’m having a hard time getting rid of it there.
My face is definitely starting to calm down with the continued use of the antibiotics, I’m about halfway through now. I feel like I’m on the mend.
I wanted to share this journey with you because I know I’m not the only one with these struggles. This is a photo of me from Thursday:
The spot my derm removed is still red but I’m able to hide the imperfections of the other spots (until they itch, which they still do, on occasion! Itching them means I get flakes and you can see them easier)
While I’m on the mend, I’m very grateful for makeup to help me feel my best. While I don’t feel unconfident, if I didn’t have makeup to experiment with and enjoy, I think I would feel a little less confident in the face I put forward everyday. Even though at my worst, makeup didn’t make a difference because I felt you could see my issues right through it, I have taken the time to do my eye makeup the majority of days in the last week, because I enjoy applying it, being creative, and it made me happy! And my foundation/BB creams have helped me feel balanced.
Do you suffer from rosacea and/or eczema? Do you struggle with the same issues and do you find solace in the creativity of a new face-of-the-day?! I’d love to hear what helps you manage your self confidence and keeps you sane!