The Beauty Loser: June 18, 2013

Disclaimer: I pay for my Medifast program and food.

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Me and Mike, Saturday night, on the Battleship New Jersey for an event.

It’s been awhile since I wrote an update in The Beauty Loser series!

That’s because for a month and a half or so, I have found myself struggling to lose the last bit of weight – which is less than 20 lbs.(targeting 140 to 145 lbs.) I’ve been focusing on that struggle internally, and if I’m honest, beating myself up over it inside while trying to remain upbeat and positive on the outside.

One of the snacks I can have on Medifast is nuts – almonds, cashews etc. – and I’ve been definitely overeating them. Like, a half a canister at a time. But I think part of me is finally happy with myself, where I am, even if I still FEEL like I have weight left to lose, and I’m enjoying it. I’m stuck in the high 150’s and my mind and body can’t get themselves together, cooperate, and finish the job. I think I’m eating those nuts because I’m comfortable.

Of course, it’s great to recognize this about yourself but I’m still struggling. I had to purchase additional weight loss weeks through Medifast in order to keep going, because the original plan I purchased took me onto the path of transition, and I wasn’t ready yet.

With all that said, I have been trying to take time and recognize the fact that I have still have come an amazing, long way. I was 220.2 lbs. at my heaviest in late 2011. I was headed into a size 20. This past weekend, I bought my first pair of size 8 capri jeans. SIZE 8!!! I’ve got small and medium tops, and mostly medium and size 10 dresses and pants. Trying on clothes this past weekend helped me feel a bit better, and let me revel in my accomplishments to date.

And I should celebrate that finally, exercise has fallen into place for me. I’m running again, and it feels awesome!

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That’s me, still breathing heavy after a 3.65 mile race a week ago! My time was 42:06! I’m regularly running and doing strengthening exercises with a couple Jackie Warner videos and my hand weights on my non running days! When I went to renew my local running club membership, Mike told me to add him. So we joined as a family. We’re both planning to run a Firecracker 5K on Fourth of July!

One of the biggest struggles I have to overcome is the urge to eat those almonds or cashews in excess, and I have to be strong like I was for so many months when in the face of sweets and alcohol. I will add foods back in my diet, but right now I’m supposed to be in a fat-burning phase and I’m hurting that phase by eating outside the plan. So my pledge this week has been NO NUTS, NO ALCOHOL (well, for the rest of the week since I indulged this weekend…) and continue regular exercising.

I think I can do it!

Have you been trying to lose weight? Start a new workout routine? I’d love to hear how you’re doing!